HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I wake up the first day of the year with the sweetest smile on my face... I was in love and was in cloud nine or somewhere higher...Nothing could pull me back to earth even to this day...
Like i said in my previous blog. Kent and me had already dated a couple of times ...yet most of it are kept secret. We made sure that nobody sees us at the resto or else we are both dead from all the tuksuhan and rumors in the office. On the day of our office christmas party...i was just at home fixing some gifts that i was supposed to give to my staff when Kent texted me. He asked me where I was and when I told him I was home he said that he was coming over cause he wanted to give me something... And he did. He gave me a necklace and a stuffed toy. How cute...and I gave him my gift for him...he gave me the sweetest christmas kiss.. That was the best gift I had received this christmas.
Also we kept on texting during the long holidays, yah di xado obvious that we miss each other...hehehhe..And he visited me december 30. La lang daw... he simply missed me that day. I was so touched knowing that it was a long travel and it was almost raining...
I had my first date for 2009 with Kent! Yes we did spend January 2 together. We travelled, went to the beach, went malling and practically drooled over each other. We were a couple in love.We never let go of each other's hand and we never let each others sight! It was the perfect date that I ever had in years. I never felt so good and so in love. No one had ever made my insides turn upside down sa sobrang kilig.... We both had the time of our lives. Since then we had dated a coupke of times already. Getting serious? I still dont know. He still has a girlfriend you see... and it scares the hell out of me because i am so getting attached to him.
A couple of days ago, he started getting serious with his text messages. I asked him how was he and his GF and what if he gets caught. He said: "Hnde pwede.I do not want to lose you. let me handle it." Anu! baliktad diba... read it again... it should have been I do not want to lose her... nah there is no typographical error... u read it right! I called him up and he was crying. I do not know for what reason... I think because he was confused. We decided to see each other the next day. We talked about it and he told me that it already came to a point that he dosn't want to lose me in his life. He kept on telling me to be nice to him. To stay nice and one day he will come to his senses because he knew that I was everything that he wanted. I thought he was ok already and later this week he admitted to me that he was not ok and that he had been crying for days. He told me that he wanted to see me so bad. But he can't. The rain poured hard that day. He said he was ok already and that he had come to his senses. " Just stay close and nice to me..."
After all that has happened we never mentioned the L-word. So many times that I was at the verge of saying it...But something pulls me back telling me not to. Ewan ko ba... I am so afraid to share to him exactly how I feel. I just want him to do the talking first...Only then, will I tell him my real feelings. I love him already beyond words can ever describe. He is the best thing that I have in my life. I am so afraid because it may turn out differently. That what I would perceive will happen will never happen. It will still be a long battle ahead of us.
Till then... Love is in the air!!!!
I wake up the first day of the year with the sweetest smile on my face... I was in love and was in cloud nine or somewhere higher...Nothing could pull me back to earth even to this day...
Like i said in my previous blog. Kent and me had already dated a couple of times ...yet most of it are kept secret. We made sure that nobody sees us at the resto or else we are both dead from all the tuksuhan and rumors in the office. On the day of our office christmas party...i was just at home fixing some gifts that i was supposed to give to my staff when Kent texted me. He asked me where I was and when I told him I was home he said that he was coming over cause he wanted to give me something... And he did. He gave me a necklace and a stuffed toy. How cute...and I gave him my gift for him...he gave me the sweetest christmas kiss.. That was the best gift I had received this christmas.
Also we kept on texting during the long holidays, yah di xado obvious that we miss each other...hehehhe..And he visited me december 30. La lang daw... he simply missed me that day. I was so touched knowing that it was a long travel and it was almost raining...
I had my first date for 2009 with Kent! Yes we did spend January 2 together. We travelled, went to the beach, went malling and practically drooled over each other. We were a couple in love.We never let go of each other's hand and we never let each others sight! It was the perfect date that I ever had in years. I never felt so good and so in love. No one had ever made my insides turn upside down sa sobrang kilig.... We both had the time of our lives. Since then we had dated a coupke of times already. Getting serious? I still dont know. He still has a girlfriend you see... and it scares the hell out of me because i am so getting attached to him.
A couple of days ago, he started getting serious with his text messages. I asked him how was he and his GF and what if he gets caught. He said: "Hnde pwede.I do not want to lose you. let me handle it." Anu! baliktad diba... read it again... it should have been I do not want to lose her... nah there is no typographical error... u read it right! I called him up and he was crying. I do not know for what reason... I think because he was confused. We decided to see each other the next day. We talked about it and he told me that it already came to a point that he dosn't want to lose me in his life. He kept on telling me to be nice to him. To stay nice and one day he will come to his senses because he knew that I was everything that he wanted. I thought he was ok already and later this week he admitted to me that he was not ok and that he had been crying for days. He told me that he wanted to see me so bad. But he can't. The rain poured hard that day. He said he was ok already and that he had come to his senses. " Just stay close and nice to me..."
After all that has happened we never mentioned the L-word. So many times that I was at the verge of saying it...But something pulls me back telling me not to. Ewan ko ba... I am so afraid to share to him exactly how I feel. I just want him to do the talking first...Only then, will I tell him my real feelings. I love him already beyond words can ever describe. He is the best thing that I have in my life. I am so afraid because it may turn out differently. That what I would perceive will happen will never happen. It will still be a long battle ahead of us.
Till then... Love is in the air!!!!
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